Partner stayed up late playing a game, came to bed at like 4am. Which caused the cat to wake up and start screaming in my ear, so I’ve been up since like 4.30am.
I don’t mind when he stays up late, or I get woken up by the cat. I’m more annoyed that once I’m awake, I can’t sleep again until I’m exhausted (which is usually mid arvo when I’m up this early).
There is something kinda peaceful though, being awake at this hour and hearing the rest of the world wake up. The street cleaners and garbos are paid well, I hope.
So the homeless guy is at the train station again. This time I spoke to him. Introduced myself as the neighbour, reassured him he is welcome to water, he needs water. Thanked him for watering my plants. Then asked if he needed help, told him about the facilities at the beach, asked if he had family. Offered money. He rejected all help. I told him that we are all part of society and that means caring and accepting help if needed. I can’t help someone if they don’t want help.
He has family , something is up if he doesn’t want them.
he looked so rough, thin, unkempt, full of cuts and bruises, and I think he had pneumonia.
but I think it made him feel a bit better to be treated kindly and with respect
I’ve know a few homesless guys and some of them are straight up unable to function as a regular member of society. Lovely people with good hearts but cannot handle a regular day to day life. Kind of you to reach out to him.
we used to have a society where there was a place for people who couldn’t cope and village life was simpler too
Amen to that
My heart hurts.
I’m not angry. I was never angry. I’m just…so sad. I wish I had understood.
This whole time I’ve been terrified of making a mistake and locking myself into a mortgage on an apartment that wasn’t the right one - I intended for this to be my home for the rest of my life, or at least for the next twenty years. I was so stressed about the possibility of picking wrong, and turns out I made a huge mistake right from the first because I hadn’t understood the nature of the agreement or hence the search.
I don’t know exactly what would be different if I HAD understood, but I’d have set my hopes somewhere different and not be grieving them now
Chef is not well today. Please help yourself
Beep Beep 🚚
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Thank you
mental health, feeling sorry for myself
I’ve been denying that I’ve feeling crap for months. I have a lot to be thankful for, but there has just been this naggling feeling that something isn’t right.
I haven’t seen my psych since last year because it’s expensive and all that’s really happened is that they have told me to do this self-compassion workbook that I keep putting off.
Things are going well for the most part. I’m almost done with uni after what feels like an eternity, I have a supportive family and partner. But I also have a crippling anxiety problem, can barely take care of myself, not much social contact beyond my boardgames group and my friends on the other side of the world, no job lined up for next year, lots of doubt about my future and uncertainty about if I’m actually capable of doing this career.
All I can do is try. Resilience.
You can feel like crap while still acknowledging what you have - both things can be true. Since you know what your psych would suggest, do you think the workbook would help?
Just keep trying, every day. Your self awareness is awesome, you are capable, you can do this.
I think it will. Thank you :)
It’s ok. Life has ups and downs. Give yourself a high five for showing up even though you have difficulties. You are winning. If the career works out for long time or only a short time, it’s fine. It’s a life experience. Most people change several careers in their lives. Hopefully the psych advice helps things. If you can find a good GP sometimes they can be helpful in anxiety treatments too.
