I’m so tired of being thrown away. I’m so tired being treated with cruelty. I’m so tired of being told that I am loved and wanted when I am so alone.
I’m so tired. I just want it to stop. I just want to give up. Love is a lie Community is a lie The only thing that’s real is pain and isolation
The idea that you cannot find love as a trans person is simply not true. It’s not easy, and it’s harder for trans people, but it’s not impossible. I’m a trans gal happily married to a husband of eight years. I found my soulmate, so can you.
I didn’t believe in soulmates until her. Now I don’t even believe in love anymore
There’s gonna be more like her, and now you know how to find them.
This your first big breakup?
She was the first person I dated that made me feel safe and didn’t make me feel used. She was the first person I dated who’s family wasn’t outright abusive to me. It’s not my first big breakup but it’s my first breakup with someone who (until now I suppose) treated me like an actual person
Yep, the more you love a person and having this be a relatively new experience is so fucking rough. Day by day, bit by bit, you’ll heal. This isn’t to diminish the pain because it will likely be on the leader board for worst experiences and pain in your life, but it should only get better from here.
I get it. I married my partner for similar reasons. But you found love once. You can find it again. No words can make the pain any easier now. But it does get better with time.