Despite my one moment of sheer misandry, which I apologize for…I love you guys ❤️

I probably can’t offer much in the way of comfort…

NSFW, TMI

…I mean, all I can offer is my body, and I doubt you’d want that :P…

…but I really, truly, honestly appreciate all of you guys. Really 💜

Without men, my life would be pretty boring and honestly pointless. And I don’t just mean for sexual reasons…

NSFW, TMI

…well, the sexual reasons are a big and important part of it too, ngl, but they’re not the only reason.

I see and appreciate you. You matter 🩷
To me. To your families. To everyone here ❤️

This isn’t much comfort, but if any of you guys needs someone to talk to, my Matrix account is:
@horny_miisha:chat.blahaj.zone
Feel free to reach out!

You’re not alone. You’re never alone. I love you guys 💜

  • LumiNocta@lemmy.zipEnglish
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    2 天前

    Funny how I’m sitting in a waiting room for my mental health appointment, reading this.

    Stay strong people.

  • captain_oni@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    2 天前

    Thank you for this post. I needed to cry a little bit and reading this post helped me let all of that out.

    Feeling much better 🫂

  • Shanmugha@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    2 天前

    Take my plus one upvote and gratitude. It is vital we are reminded we have feelings and hardships just as anyone else

  • Gormadt@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    2 天前

    It’s the time of year where most of the anniversaries of the worst days of my life happen basically back to back.

    December through the first week of January are the hardest. In those 5 weeks there’s 7 anniversaries. Not to mention not being welcome at any family gathering anymore since I was outed as being queer.

    Couple that with a hearty unhealthy dose of survivors guilt (from a couple of those anniversaries) and you get a perfect storm every year.

    I’m much better than I used to be but it’s still not easy.

    • Teagan@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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      2 天前

      Hey, I get it. I have a very similar sort of deal going on around July and September personally…

      It really isnt easy… I look back at the art I was making before and after the 3-year series of events and its just… Wow. I wish I could be like me 3 years ago…

      You’re seen. And I know nothing about you beyond this comment, but I personally feel a sense of “we’re in this together!” that eases my mind, and I hope this comment has done the same for you.

      Love your way <3

  • JillyB@beehaw.orgEnglish
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    2 天前

    Thanks for this. I opened this in the Uber to my psych appointment funny enough. Hoping she’ll let me switch my meds.

  • InEnduringGrowStrong@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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    2 天前

    If I’m honest for a sec, I’ve been struggling lately.
    Work has been super intense and nothing I can do ever feels like it’s enough.
    Deep down, I know it’s not a me problem, hell, I’m the best damn person for this particular task, it’s just… a lot. That also means I’ll have to lead this thing for a month, away from home this time.
    People see how I fix things and think it’s easy for me.
    It’s not. I’m just used to making shit work at the cost of my own self.
    I’m tired of paying that toll and I don’t know how much longer I can keep it together.

    I recognize this present overwork-dragon facing me, I’ve been down this road before and I know how wholly it can consume me. Not even in a vore way either.
    Being away also means there’s nobody to fuck my brains out or use me as a toy to take my mind off this thing.

    Still, silver linings… this time I’m lucky enough to have my soul-friend-bestie along.
    It doesn’t make it less bullshit, but at least we’re going insane together.
    Anyway, idk why I’m dumping a wall of text here.
    Gotta get back to it… peace.

    • velma@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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      2 天前

      Work isn’t more important than your well being, you deserve to be seen. I’m so happy to see that you’ve got a supportive partner. You matter. You matter independent of the work you do for others.

      It gets better <3

      • InEnduringGrowStrong@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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        2 天前

        Thanks.

        You matter independent of the work you do for others.

        I do need to re-internalize this from time to time.
        Like, rationally speaking, I do know this.
        I’m more than a fruit to extract juice from and then be discarded.
        In the heat of the moment though, I put others’ needs above my own, which means sometimes I’ll forget myself in the process.

        And yea, I’m blessed to have met my platonic soulmate, although somewhat late in life.

        • Teagan@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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          2 天前

          Holy crap dude, you’re like… The guy version of what I lived in college… And am living the aftermath of now… Still… Years later…

          Please. I don’t know what you’re going through, but try to take a step back before its too late and stay strong. Be kind to yourself… Those you are supporting WILL want you to be okay too, and diving too deep may make things worse for everyone eventually… If you let yourself burn out, they may need, or at least feel the need to support you. Hell, you may even honestly need that if you go too deep. It is much better to pace yourself.

          An idol can become a warning…

    • ShadowOfMiisha (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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      2 天前

      Don’t feel bad about sharing your feelings. Never do!
      I’m sorry you’re struggling like that. I know how rough things can be, but not like this. I’m sorry…
      I’m glad you’re still here with us. And I’m glad you have such a good friend in your life 🫂
      I can’t really offer much, but if you’d like to talk about any of this stuff, I’m here.
      Please don’t give up! You’re not alone in this 🩷

    • FunStuffIsFun@eviltoast.orgEnglish
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      2 天前

      I fucking hate that. I mean, it was no shave November to raise testicular/prostate dancer awareness, but nooooooo! Instead, some jackass decided it would be a better idea to rake away orgasms.

  • Kn1ghtDigital@lemmy.zipEnglish
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    3 天前

    Thank you for posting this. It’s been a rough year and this helped. A lot of people just kind of expect a guy to drop dead of they have any problems, Feels like.

    • ShadowOfMiisha (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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      2 天前

      Yeah. That’s how I feel a lot of people feel and it fucking sucks. I’m sorry for you guys…I wish we could fix our broken society, but that’s wishful thinking…
      Stay strong! 💜

  • YoSoySnekBoi@kbin.earth
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    3 天前

    I lost a good friend to suicide a few years ago. Around the same time, I was sexually assaulted by a friend I had confided in about my grief. He got away with it because I was too afraid to speak up, and to this day nobody knows it happened. The only reason I’m still around is because I know firsthand what it’s like when someone you love kills themselves.

    Thankfully, I’m doing much better these days, but I’ll never forget both what being suicidal feels like, and the exact reasons why I’ll never do it.

    • ShadowOfMiisha (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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      2 天前

      That’s so messed up…I’m so sorry you had to go through that. I can’t even imagine…
      I’m glad you’re still here 🫂
      If you’d like to talk about any of those things, I’m free. I’m here.
      Please don’t give up! The world is better with you in it. Stay strong 💜

  • Allero@lemmy.todayEnglish
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    3 天前
    NSFW, TMI

    …I mean, all I can offer is my body, and I doubt you’d want that :P…

    Girlie, you have a great man and growing following on the naughty side of the Fediverse. You sure about that? 😏

    Also, having a person to talk to can be very important, and it’s cool of you to share this 😊

  • Destide@feddit.ukEnglish
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    3 天前

    I lost my dad to sucicide when I was younger, it’s a deamon that trickles down and has knocked at the door at multiple points in my life. But I think knowing what happens after is what has helped me embrace life as much as I have. The sun will always rise tommorrow