Idk how to describe it.
But like, I was scrolling yt and saw something about my little pony pop up and it made me realize that i would’ve loved mlp so much as a kid. I even remember in kindergarten when I was trying to play with mlp dolls and another kid came up to me and said “those are for girls.” [I’m not like blaming him for everything, it’s just struck me how long I’ve had that memory for]. I was always really insecure about watching “girl” shows and movies for so long that I actively felt uncomfortable when they were on.
Or just playing with dolls in general. I did like playing with cars and stuff as a kid but I think i would have really liked dolls too.
But like…I cant really do those now. At least not in the same way, yknow? I’m an adult and watching mlp is…not exactly mentally stimulating. At least that’s my impression.
I was really glad that my mom didn’t stop me from doing girly things when I was young. I was allowed to wear my sister’s dresses and play with dolls. Most of my friends when I was young were also girls, not sure exactly why that was, but it carried on that way most of my life to a lesser extent. It turns out I’m not trans, but I’m glad to have those formative experiences to inform my relation with my gender.